....53 years old this summer

...........and noise wasn't at all a necessary thing this summer.. but words could have been needed mored often..
finally back at my place , full of noise again... heat continues ... I'm a year older , my physical possibilities are less thanks to RA, and I'm not sure how to be able to survive in all. ..
so noise, no words... looking for the real sound.

......y hidden.pl photos , definitions and video are finished, now working on the hidden.es video, soon all this will be ready, so I'll have to concentrate on the questions in french, organize(ask) Paris and Berlin for autumn, and dedicate summer to pain and new approaches to words..
news for the pain side ( the real one) I have to leave last 6 years treatment.. next week to begin new, a little afraid it looks dangerous, at least more than the two previous ones.. I have to be doing blood counts every 15 days.. anyway we'll see. ..as I just have to do it.
friday clouds this morning.. having to continue with work.. a steady line , no sellings, no news..

...... and again working .. I've finally decided the 9 polish definitions.. and I've been working on 6 photos, my back is aching and my neck is stiff ... time to finish for today 20:21... going to make dinner.... spinachs and fruit for today.. my diet again..

these easter days have been mostly silent, no noise, no conversations, no words, reading on my terrasse some days, thinking what to do this summer I need to rent the flat two months... but nothing came out of the 3 artist in residence I asked for, so, unless something comes out, I'll have to be with my brother in his house and maybe a cantabric travel in the north of spain at a friend's house... it's a lot of interaction for me but maybe it will be possible.

.....friday ..these days between extreme tiredness, some work done, and some practical things.. not much done. today I feel first day more recovered.. tonight all friends we meet at Christine restaurant, a nice dinner as always.. then I'll come back home, still a need to take things easy..
hoping for some more work done and some new possibilities..appearing. not for this year.time to finish this proyect even if only on virtual terms..Berlin and Paris, left for autumn.

approaching the old town, friday morning, snow melting..

sexy Lola having her first menstruation, in her Victoria secret item!

place of work, elszbieta & Martin house

Elszbieta , my dear and beautiful gallerist and friend in Warsaw

this was my first morning of work in warsaw last tuesday..

.......finally the pain left my body,.. now I have to clean it after so much medication... feeling fragile and weak.. not much time to recover , before to fly to Warsaw for 5 days to make 9 interviews for the hidden identities series... my head isn't thinking too much lately..

.....SILENCE... it is always even with words.. how the line can be clear?

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Now playing: Virginia Woolf sobre las palabras (1937)
via FoxyTunes

...days with pain, my reumatoide arthritis did come back again, this time very painfully, I'm under strong medication, not much work,, the weakness,, and time.. reading withou much attention, and feeling low again, as I know the illness will only increase and my strengh is less..
so little optimistic thoughts these days.. it will pass.. but for now i'l stranded on the shore..

...... a dark, humide monday, raining.. I want to end the 9 photos this week.. so I can began february editing the video... names and definitions are clear now.. from the honest, to the shy... still some time before to leave again...
no conversations waiting .. just the outside noise is less.

..new year found me with a very strong cold that still is in me.. slowly beginning the work, today very cold , colder weather tonight and tomorrow.. so unusual for this city! luckily I musn't get out so I can stay very warm at home.. doubts about the colours and feeling of the new hands.. two have been transformed not very convinced yet..
I feel somehow very inside these days as all what comes from outside is hard and in my actual fragility I cannot support it too well.. hoping for better outcomes.
dreams , quite strange in the night as I awake very often..